Monday, November 28, 2011

Vacation


My beloved spouse "Himself" and I will be on a weeks holiday spending time with our children and grandchildren.  I will enjoy not having to make the bed, cook, clean, play with my loyal mini-minions Rupert and Boomer or even feed my dark flock of crows.  However I will miss them all, miss my normal routine and miss the magic of my home and hearth.

I will get to visit my dear brother "the Geezer" (see below for a link to HIS blog - MINE is much better!) and that is a good thing.  We are both orphans now, our parents having passed on to the next life.  It's good to keep in touch and stay connected.

I am looking forward to a grandson's birthday (6 years old!) and seeing a granddaughter who is growing up way too fast.  I am going to enjoy spending time with Himself in a new location, renewing our romance and reminding ourselves why we are so crazy about each other (all fun things to do!).

To be honest I'll enjoy the time away from the computer, the Internet and facebook.  I love writing this blog, I love seeing who reads it and I'd love it if more of my readers made comments.  I find it amazing that this technology makes it possible for an old crone on "The Peninsula" to have readers in Malaysia, Germany and Russia (three of my hot spots for readers).  Please let me know what you like, what you want to know about me and my life and why you read!  It will make my experience of writing this blog more enjoyable.

Perhaps after the first of the year I'll post a real photo of myself so you will all know what I really look like.  Perhaps.  I'll be back in a few days and continue to post my thoughts, feelings and observations from "The Peninsula".

Le Petite Crone Says:  See you in a few days.....



Sunday, November 20, 2011

The Dark Time


Mother Nature doesn't own a calendar.  This year Autumn came early to "The Peninsula" chasing our brief but beautiful summer away seemingly overnight.  One day it was warm (for here) and the next day crisp and cool.  The air had that slight smell of smoke and the light had that magical golden hue that you only see in the Autumn. 

This week Winter arrived.  I stepped outside to greet the morning and there it was....Winter.  I don't want it to be winter...but it is.  The crisp morning air of Autumn was gone...it was cold.  The golden hue of Autumnal light was gone...the hard grey light of Winter was painting the woods an almost black and white palate.  I retreated inside to console myself with a cup of hot coffee. 

I love Autumn, it's my favorite season.  There just seems to be so much magic in the air during Autumn that I feel alive and almost giddy with happiness.  Winter here on "The Peninsula" can be depressing, grey, rain, rain, rain and more grey can get you down.  I know that seasons change and that each season has it's magic.  I've already seen some winter magic in the past few days.  I watched the morning sun, hard and white stream through the rain drenched hemlock, pine and spruce trees surrounding our home.  The sun's light turning each raindrop into a tiny prism decorating each tree with rainbows.  I watched as mists rose from the forest floor and floated away like the ghosts of long lost souls weaving their way through the skeletal branches of the now leafless Alders.  I've watched as my crows walked about the front yard, their dark black so stark against the frost covered grass.

I sometimes think that my dislike of Winter is due to my age. I see in the changing seasons my own decline. I like to think of myself as in my golden Autumn years; years filled with magic, beauty and excitement. I don't like to be reminded of the Winter years that are just around the corner.  Who does?  Yet I know that this time will come and I have to choose how to face it. 

For me Winter is now the time to turn inwards and take stock of things.  Just as our ancestors took stock of their stores of food, seed and firewood judging if they would survive I take stock of where I am, where I am going and how I will get there.  As a Crone I'm learning that the dark time is not a time to fear but a time to rejoice.  It's the end of a cycle and the beginning of another.  I'm hoping that when my dark time of Winter arrives that I will have been stripped bare of all that I no longer need, as beautiful, stark and strong as a leafless tree in Winter. 

Le Petite Crone says:  Do not be afraid of the dark.

Monday, November 14, 2011

The Shape of Things


When I was young I was skinnier, had a round soft face, my waist was just below my belly button, everything was pretty much located where it was suppose to be.  But as I started down that long creaky road to cronedom I noticed that clothing just wasn't fitting the way it use to.  What is going on?

I realize that your body changes as you age.  Your eyesight gets worse, your hearing seems to diminish (either that or you just don't pay attention to anything anymore).  Knees start to creak and when you turn your head from side to side you hear this horrible sound similar to sand being ground between two stones...but it's coming from INSIDE!  Inside your neck where WD40 just can't help.

I find that my body tends to create new and exciting pains and irritations to amuse me in the middle of the night when I'm sound asleep.  I am jolted awake by some strange cramp, sharp pain or odd sound coming from...yes, INSIDE my body!  Gurgles, hisses, bubbles, grating noises...you name it I've heard it. 

I also started to notice that clothing that use to fit just fine is incredibly uncomfortable now.  I'm not heavier...I take the same size....it's just that my parts don't seem to be where they use to be and my clothes just don't fit anymore!  No one told me that your body parts migrate!  Really now, don't you think that's an important bit of knowledge that needs sharing?  I do.

My waist has migrated down so all my jeans fit above my waist now.  Not comfortable.  Years of lifting weights gave me pretty broad and muscled shoulders for a woman...now the seams in my petite tops don't even make it to the end of my shoulder.  It's extra large for me!  To be honest sometimes I've taken to purchasing men's shirts because they fit better (and last longer - another subject for a future blog!).  So far I'm very happy that by breasts "the girls" haven't started the dreaded migration down to my knees....still in good shape for their age!  Keep it up ladies!

My father once told me that your warranty was up at forty.  He was about right on that.  I woke up on my 40th birthday with aches and pains that I hadn't had the night before.  However, no one told me that mass migration starts in your mid-fifties. 

I've come to accept that change is the only constant in life.  As you age your beliefs and thoughts change, you grow, shed, acquire new aspects to your personality.  You also change physically...from youth to prime to aged...Maiden, Mother and Crone.  It's the way of life.  You can accept change gracefully and with joy or you can be miserable.  I chose to be joyful even with my migrations and bodily symphonies.

Le Petite Crone says:  Enjoy the shape of things to come!

Friday, November 11, 2011

Commercial Age



We don't watch much television here on "The Peninsula".  It's not that we don't have television it's just that we have better things to do.  I do watch movies and old series now and then on my laptop.  I enjoy this as I can watch on my schedule.  I'm not tech savvy enough to enjoy the blessings of Tevo and DVR's and all that.  I'm not even sure what they are.  I'm still trying to figure out our remote controls.  We have one for the VCR, one for the DVD and one for the TV which we are apparently suppose to be able to program to do everything.  So far no luck!

My dear spouse "Himself" and I do have several shows that we regularly watch.  We like to watch the news (NOT FOX news!), we like South Park, Futurama and The Daily Show.  I have a couple of series that I like to follow but I usually watch these on my laptop when I have free time.

One thing we find slightly annoying while watching these programs are the commercials.  Not that the commercials are inane, idiotic, stupid and seem to assume that you are a moron (even though they are and do).  What we find annoying is that they assume you are a certain age depending on the program you are watching.  While I realize that this is all part of the "science" of advertising I still find it annoying.

I really dislike having to sit through commercials about cholesterol medication, laxatives, erectile dysfunction and adult diapers while watching the news.  I equally dislike having to wonder what in the hell the commercials are even FOR while watching South Park!  What is 4G and why do I want one?  I don't want to know about the hottest sex chat phone number that you are suppose to text either!

Speaking of sex chat, when I was single I lived in an apartment upstairs from a woman who worked on one of those sex chat lines.  She was in her 60's and would stand outside her door talking dirty to her "customer" while wearing fluffy slippers and a ratty bathrobe....buyer beware!

Sometimes I wonder if advertisers just assume that no one in their crone years would ever consider watching South Park and The Daily Show, or that a young person would watch the network news.  My dear spouse "Himself" likes to think that because we tend to watch "younger" shows that obviously makes us "cool".  I for one would just love to see a commercial for adult diapers air during South Park.  Give the younger generation a heads up on what they have to look forward to.

When I seriously think about this I feel that media is trying to categorize all of us into age brackets and program a certain image, mental state and way of being based on what age group we fall into.  I don't like it.  I'm in spirit younger as a crone that I ever was as a teenager!  I intend to stay this way.....

Le Petite Crone says:  Age is just a number!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Vibrations of Life

There is a quote supposedly by Albert Einstein that goes "Everything in life is vibration".  Technically this is correct as each atom in creation vibrates to some wavelength. This thought intrigues me to no end.  My atoms and the atoms of a tree, a rock, water, air, the elements on a far distant planet....all vibrate.  I don't want to sound all George Lucas, Jedi Knight "the force" here, but it's a mind bending concept when you dwell on it.

Have some people retained the ability to be sensitive to the vibrations of the universe and perhaps manipulate these vibrations.  Could this be the basis of miracles, faith healing, people who see spirits or are psychic?  There are of course frauds and fakes out there but there are also those few who defy the skeptics and have unexplained abilities.  I think it all comes down to vibrations.

I've recently read of studies done by several universities that measure electromagnetic field fluctuations during group prayer, chanting and ritual dance.  The results showed that there were wild and powerful vibrational fields generated by these activities.  People were generating and manipulating the vibrations around themselves.  This explains why in "primitive" cultures the shamans and healers use chanting and dance as part of their healing ritual.  Modern science has shown that playing  music (vibrations) helps reduce pain and speed healing in hospitals.  I've known people who swear that their plants grow better when they play music or talk to them (vibrations).

Have you ever been drawn to a specific place, a tree, a rock formation?  Have you felt as if there was something calling you?  I have, I think it's a vibrational connection.  Perhaps this is what spirituality is, connecting with the elemental nature of all things.  I also feel that sites of great trauma, such as disasters, battles or violent acts can retain the vibrational imprint of what happened.  If you are sensitive believe me you feel it and perhaps even see images of that past (ghosts).  I've been on former battlefields and have had such an overwhelming reaction that I could hardly breathe.

Take some time, sit quietly and let your mind be at peace and try to sense the world around you.

Le Petite Crone says:  Stretch out your senses and allow yourself to feel....you may just connect with something beyond  and within yourself.